EUROVISION 2012 FEVER!!!!!!!
i believe that im one of few Eurovision fans from Malaysia that excited for this coming 2012 Eurovision which will be held in Baku, the lovely capital of Azerbaijan. Prior to the winning of Azerbaijan entry in 2011 edition.
Seriously, me and Pasha are planning to go watching the finals, but a lot of problems permit us to go there for this year edition. SOO...........
we planed to go next year, the 2013 edition. HHAHAH... Please, i wish we can make it. Rough plan is already drafted as il depart from Malaysia and he will depart from Egypt. The problem now is in term of financials. But, inshallah it will be a reality as i have roughly 1 year to collect money and i started already. :)
A big inshallah that we will visit Eurovision 2013 + holidays and other exciting things soon... in one year time! AMEN! lol.
Baku 2012!!
Its the first day of trimester 3 of my Beta year in LLB. I got into the knowledge of my results about a week ago, and i've nothing else to say except a lot of gratitude and thanks to dear Allah for giving me chance to improve myself.
I passed everything and i believe its the sign from Him that i hv to work hard especially to increase my CGPA in this coming 3rd trimester. My classes will start tomorrow and i cant say much that im so excited to strive for more in this coming trimester. I'll be taking two subjects and i hope that i can manage my time properly. I have other activities to commit too.
Also a lot of syukur to Him for making Orientation March program went smoothly. Its my first task as director and im so happy to finish it with flying color. :) I hope everything get much much much more better after this. Amen. :)
After so long, this blog account is kinda neglected. lol. Yea, basically its just a place for me to let out my uncertain emotions.
These days, i think i really fucked up. The passed few weeks were amazing. Had good memories and experiences. But then, things changed so fast. And now i end up sobbing and being emotional with stuff that i really care.
Its so difficult when we cant fulfill what expected by people. Im really sad with people perceptions. Especially when they are people that i really care and appreciate. Wallah i feel stupid. :( Things happen without my willingness. What can they expect from me? Turn into Saint?
Even now, i dont know what should i do. To keep avoiding them or just act usual, or il just totally get them out of my life and il just continue my so called pathetic life faking of being happy and as if problem is not in my life dictionary.
I do not want end up to be 'crazy' and do stupid stuff. LOL. I can try ofcourse; but as people say; curiosity kills the cat. Regret myself of being too friendly, but thats myself. What can i do? Hopefully il get over it fast and continue what i suppose to do.
Finals for my 2nd trimester of my first law degree year is getting nearer. I dont want myself to keep wasting time and neglect everything, especially my studies. Il try to start to move on soon, inshallah. Also, im really excited to get off my duty as student representative. Its not that im bored with it. It just that i need my old way of doing my life. I learnt so much being a student representative. Both pros and cons. And honestly said, i enjoy it. But, in the process of learning, i have to keep move on and keep looking for new way of making myself a better leader insyallah.
Im childish. So what ??? i admit it, but not always. i know when i should be serious and when i should be playful. At least im not like certain people that cant even differentiate the correct time to be childish and to be serious. And fuck off to those haters, im being myself and just eat it arsaaa. :D
heheheh.
Halas, il keep update this blog privately as my reviews in future. :D
Good morning everyone. :)
As usual, after long time, im back to give some updates, or perhaps it is just a moment when i feel the needs to let out something from my heart.
BTW, the previous post was a post made by a kid named izzul. He was one of the participant in the My Village Homestay program that ive joined, which has been taught to use blogspot and how to create one.....using my profile. LOL... so i think better i just let it there as a memory. :)
So, currently im in the state of suiting up myself in 2nd trimester. Stuffs are getting tougher as i need to cover up some other things too, plus my studies and my procrastinating habit make it worst. Everything is in one pack.... mid terms, revisions, programs, events and etc etc. *sigh* okay, im not really want to talk about life that ive been going thru these few weeks, but instead of keeping it, maybe i should let it out, not to condemn ppl or to indirectly bash them, but for me to feel better perhaps.
okay, firstly,, maybe regarding the situation is my 'job' which i believe its getting worse, and im sick of it, not by the workloads, but with the ppl inside. Im not into segregation, so fuck it off..
next, i always have issues on friendship. LOL maybe i appreciated it too much or.. idk, but really it is something sensitive for me. esp when it relates to my close friends, or friends that i respect and i care about them. okay, the issue is that why ppl need to ignore others whilst you can just treat everyone equally. im not being jealous or whtever shit, it just that im not someone that you dont know, so for fuck sake, say hello or hi....... lol.
for example, you promised something, or ok, you planned something..... but at the end, it was nothing. fuckkkkkkk. lol. once or twice, its fine for me..... but when it turns to be like everytime u made promises.... damn its hurts. and there was no sense of explaining reasons or of saying sorry etc... im disappointed.
maybe im not that good like other person,.. so what, i think i appreciate you guys more that others. but, nevermind, i know things will be fine like usual =.= im the one who always has to give up and 'forget' everything. loool
into the other circle of friends. i miss them so much. someone is getting happier with his life there. lol... im happy for him too. hes one of the bestest friends i have.. the others..., im not saying that i hv issues with them, it just that im not into having usual conversation, as im busy with stuffs so, il get with them soon. oh yaa, hypocrisy is everywhere, dont you guys think??? hahahhaahah. im trying to get away from that too, but come on, we cant live without hypocrisy. BUT, be one in a suitable situation. Not literally you said you will not do that, you condemned it like so much, and disgusting abt it etc etc... but still, you are the one who did it. hahahahaha. nevermind, im fine with it besties. :)
here we now in the next circle of friends. okay, they made my life the most in these particular periods. yes, maybe because im with them like almost everyday, issues and problems are common.but fuck it... they are the one that really close with me. and im happy to have them now,... place for me to really LOL and shares stuff. lllolll :D
and what else....... im happy to be filled up with many types of friend. lol and God bless them. lol.
nama saya izzul.saya berumur 9 tahun saya telah menyertai programme ''my village ''pada11-12-13 november 2011.kampung parit penghulu sangat menarik kerana ianya telah memberi saye 1001 kenangan.
Good evening. One thing that i've learnt and still learning when i got into uni life that is, people can be very emotional and sometimes it went on too much. Im not saying that im different emotionally, or stronger, or better in handling emotion issues, but at least i believed that i know how to react in some emotional issues especially regarding friendship.
Sometimes, they took it very seriously, or if it did happened, they dont know how to manage it in a proper way such as by having a proper talk, or face-to-face discussions; to settle the problems. Instead, they make it publics, make it as it has been overlooked by some serious ways of judgment. So, there we have; social network wars. Twitter, Facebook, or any other online medium where they have tons of friends and started to establish some harsh and sharp statuses or updates which claimed as a 'general' statement. But instead of that, those harsh words are meant to someone, of course.
I admitted that i did it too, before. But as i grew up. I realized one thing, that is by having such attitude brings nothing to yourself and to your friends. Instead, it affects your friendship. OKAY, maybe in my situation, it is arguable because i am the type that unable to 'fight' or be in a fighting mode for a long period. Less than 2 or 3 days are more than enough. :) But still, do you think by doing such things will bring any good??
Like seriously, bad, harsh and cursing words online as if its for nobody, but actually there is someone for it. Come on. this 'touching' or hurt-feeling issues are totally childish. I swear its like a disease in my circle of friends in university. For me if you feel hurt by someone's conducts, just confront him/her face-to-face. And ask why etc etc.
Another attitude that i really hate, and experienced it alot; is called 'being a fucking faker of all time': oh hell yea i hate these kind of people. They avoid you totally in all sense of activities, but when you ask them what happened?, PUFFF; "oh, nothing..im fine.. im ok lah... oh nothing wrong lah.. eh kita ok jela" ..etc etc LIKE FUCK YOU BITCH!! You acted like there was nothing wrong happened, but then you treat your friends like some disgusting shits? And faking some more. At least, let them know whats wrong, and explain everything. Peace and harmony will follows.
SIGH, really i had enough of these silly things. For me, you have problems, we settle it on time and finish it all. And thats it. :) Really fighting among friends are just a simple stuff for me. In my 21 years of existence *tiba jah*..... i had maybe only 1 fight that effects me the most; by means that it is difficult to recover. But still he/she is still my friend. Nothing is much important than a friend, yeaa, it is hard to find the right one, but once you got him/her, youre bless forever.
i love my friends and i know and im sure, they love me too; eventho if we have the biggest fight in the whole universe, you are still that person i always called friend.
GETTING SOME POUNDS OFF.
Yeahh!!! Im trying to shed some pounds. LOL. Yeah, and at the same time im trying to live a healthy lifel God bless. No more 'packs'.. Yeaa,, no more. im trying to stop it forever, and follow some kosher style of diet...... hahaha. hopefully dapat la kekal kan yer.
hm okay. Finally im in my 2 weeks of holidays of my 1st semester for my 1st year. Final exams done; with a devastated feeling and worried of any bad consequences. BUT, finger-crossed. Hoping for the best, I've done my best, and in two weeks time, the results will out. Damnnn. BOOO, please, Im not into that phase. T.T
Anyways, hopefully everything will be fine. :\
