After so long, this blog account is kinda neglected. lol. Yea, basically its just a place for me to let out my uncertain emotions.
These days, i think i really fucked up. The passed few weeks were amazing. Had good memories and experiences. But then, things changed so fast. And now i end up sobbing and being emotional with stuff that i really care.
Its so difficult when we cant fulfill what expected by people. Im really sad with people perceptions. Especially when they are people that i really care and appreciate. Wallah i feel stupid. :( Things happen without my willingness. What can they expect from me? Turn into Saint?
Even now, i dont know what should i do. To keep avoiding them or just act usual, or il just totally get them out of my life and il just continue my so called pathetic life faking of being happy and as if problem is not in my life dictionary.
I do not want end up to be 'crazy' and do stupid stuff. LOL. I can try ofcourse; but as people say; curiosity kills the cat. Regret myself of being too friendly, but thats myself. What can i do? Hopefully il get over it fast and continue what i suppose to do.
Finals for my 2nd trimester of my first law degree year is getting nearer. I dont want myself to keep wasting time and neglect everything, especially my studies. Il try to start to move on soon, inshallah. Also, im really excited to get off my duty as student representative. Its not that im bored with it. It just that i need my old way of doing my life. I learnt so much being a student representative. Both pros and cons. And honestly said, i enjoy it. But, in the process of learning, i have to keep move on and keep looking for new way of making myself a better leader insyallah.
Im childish. So what ??? i admit it, but not always. i know when i should be serious and when i should be playful. At least im not like certain people that cant even differentiate the correct time to be childish and to be serious. And fuck off to those haters, im being myself and just eat it arsaaa. :D
heheheh.
Halas, il keep update this blog privately as my reviews in future. :D
